One fresh meat's mission to do....what?

After the angst and thinkings and musings, I woke this morning feeling....annoyingly headachey actually, but that's a minor detail. I woke up aching and sore from training for five hours yesterday, but feeling like my faith in derby had been renewed. 

I realised that this blog isn't really about it's original brief any more. When I started it about six months ago (crivvens!) it was all about how I was getting fitter and healthier through derby, and I had monthly photo updates and so on. Now it's morphed into something a bit different. Back in January, I hadn't fully appreciated the profound effect joining a league, a team and a sport would have on me. The physical stuff, that's a given now. I work out, train as hard as I can, eat right, it's just part of the bigger picture now. 

I've had a couple of wobbles recently about the sport. Do I really want to commit to it as much as I am? Am I happy to be a casually scrimmaging skater, or do I want to make the leap and see how far I can take this? I've given it a lot of thought, and I woke up this morning with a conclusion. 

I want to see how far I can go. I want to make travel team, I want to play other leagues, I want to be a pivot, I want to, well, excel in my role. If I don't make travel team this time round, I'll do it next time. If we don't make it to the finals this year, I'll be damn sure to be heading the pack in the charge for next year. I don't think I'll be happy with myself if I don't push myself and see what I can do with this awesome opportunity, not just this week or month, but way beyond that.

So I guess the blog is about that, really. Instead of a year of my attempts to look good in derby skinz (which I now own and look pretty good in!), it's about getting to where I want to be. To go from being a nervous freshie to, hopefully, a coach, a captain, a pivot. 

So much to do, and from here it all looks pretty damn good.